But at what cost? (Anxiety 3 of 8)

I experience a lot of anxiety and fear monthly when it comes to filling my prescription at the pharmacy and ordering my insulin pump supplies. The medication containers covered with translucent monetary images, embody the idea that money for medical supplies is never-ending.  Every time I purchase my medication, I feel a whirlpool of mixed emotions ranging from anger to guilt. It is extremely difficult to pay ± R4000 monthly on medication and supplies to have a semi-normal life.