Battlescape Embodied (Abjection)

Abjection is the embodiment of my thoughts, feelings and experiences around the physical functioning of my body. My thoughts stem from my experience of living with chronic disease. I capture these moments of abject thoughts using 3D printed organs, bones and plastic content, to embody the brittleness of my physical body’s organs as they deteriorate. All the organic material like dried fynbos flowers and cow organs embody my self-hate and repulsion towards of my body that I see as a battlescape. My disease prescribes a pristine, clinical environment that makes me feel separate from myself. The created resin cubes echo these feelings of separation. The use of something that was once living like the fynbos flowers and the cow organs now dead represent my body’s deteriorating organs and the separation between life and death.